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My mind is spinning today.

I’m having a good day. I’m having pleasant interactions with others. I’ve gotten a lot done. I’m happy. So it’s not an “upset” thing.

It’s just funny is all. It’s like I’m feeling like my brain is charged up with more thoughts than i can think all at one time. The universe of my thoughts almost seem to fall in on each other some times.

And it sort of feels like if I just stop trying to interpret them, and just experience the raw data feed, without allowing myself to translate it into something meaningful, it will all fall into place and suddenly make sense.

 do you know what i mean? like i could learn how to do it or something. getting lost in translation. if there was a way to just experience the meaning, without having to label or translate it, it would all make sense. (gee, that sounds so zen…    )

i took a couple of semesters of a sign language interpreter program. it was a phase. but throughout the course of that program, i learned something…specifically, what it felt like to think in another language. to understand without translating it into english first.

and i’ll tell ya: that was a weird feeling. becuase it’s not your native language, maybe it gets processed by a different part of the brain or something. i dunno. it felt like the meaning was mainlined into my brain. it was trippy.

 but you know what i’m talking about? or is it just me?

sorry for boring the folks not interested in ipods, but i’m having fun with it.

the apple is made MUCH better than the knock-off i got. and for fun, i grabbed a bunch of songs that i may not have normally listened to, some stuff i didn’t know exactly what it was, but sounded interesting. so…i have some alternative, rap, blues, hiphop, etc. and it’s been fun.

i suprised myself some: i’m really diggin’ on the pink, man. what the??  

i didn’t expect that, but she’s got a really good voice. and she’s got this rap song, about girls not “givin’ it up” for guys too easily. i shouldn’t like it, but i do. “Respect” by Pink.

The phone rings and I scan the caller ID. It’s my bank. That’s never good, if your bank is calling you, is it? With some trepidation, I search my brain for ideas about why they may be calling, but nothing comes to mind. So I sigh just a little, inside, and answer it.

The lady introduces herself, and then continues, “We’ll be having some representatives in the Eudora area tomorrow to visit with our business customers, and was wondering when they might stop by to visit with you?”

What? They will have representatives in the area? How many businesses are there in this town that use them anyway? And what is this? A poll? And besides, we’re 7 miles away from them. They have to make a special day to come out here? What the fuck is this woman talking about, anyway?

“Uh, I’m not going to be in tomorrow, actually.” It was true and everything. Granted, it was a lunch date and I could have worked around it. I didn’t want to.

“Well, when would be a better time for you?” (more…)

Today is my nephew Conlin’s birthday, according to my life manager (aka Outlook). Hope it’s a delightful one for him.

Happy Fuckin’ Birthday, Conlin!

(No police involvement.)

ok, i got around using the evil itunes.

from the hack i posted yesterday, i downloaded vpod and put it on my ipod shuffle. so a converter from mp3, whatever, to the ipod format is on the unit itself.

i also downloaded a program called media monkey. it’s cute, and it is much smaller than itunes…not to mention easier to use, with more features, and NOT a big memory hog like itunes.

well, i broke down and bought myself an actual ipod shuffle today. but since i’m not hot on itunes, i went searching for a hack.

the self-sustaining ipod. 

obviously homespun advice, and felt like it was told the perspective of someone who’s been there.

As your relationship with a romantic interest has developed, you find your old friends falling away, while family members remark on how you don’t seem like yourself. Are you losing yourself to this odd, and ultimately destructive, relationship? Before you can regain your individuality and strength, you’ll need to determine if the relationship is what’s taking it away, and put an end to the destructive cycle.

Ok, yesterday I got that new mp3 player I was excited about. It looked great and I plugged it in for the suggested SIX HOURS to charge!

 The fact of the matter is that I just can’t get it to work right. Today, the computer isn’t “seeing it,” the thing doesn’t appear to be charging, and, outside of about an hour last night, I haven’t been able to get it to stay on and play.

Ugh.

 So I contacted the ebay seller and am returning it. I think I’ll just get me a real ipod and put up with the itunes. 

Man…i’m not even sure what to say to this one…

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it’s almost my anniversary, and i’ve had a lot going on lately anyway, so i’ve been feeling a bit self-indulgent.

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